It wasn’t intentional to publish issue 007 a bit over two months ago and then take an unannounced hiatus. While I do plan to resume a regular weekly or bi-weekly schedule, I’ve definitely recognized that having a few extra issues ready to publish would give me some much needed cushion when “life happens.” During the last two months, I’ve taken a much needed family vacation, weathered the entire clan having COVID-19 and many, many more events along the way. I’m happy to say that we’re all in good health and life is resuming whatever form of structure it naturally falls into with a household of two adults, 6 kids, an English Mastiff, a ragdoll cat, and a leopard gecko.
Life has a rather ironic way of forcing you to come up for air whether you think you need it or not. I’m slowly trying to make changes that simplify various aspects of my now 40-something life. I’ve been on a “Twitter diet” of sorts. While the number of people I follow is relatively contained, I found the urge to open Tweetbot in “empty” moments disconcerting. I recognized that even with my near elimination of “endless scroll” social media consumption, Twitter was sneaking in as the “but I get value” trojan horse to my castle of attention. I’ve removed Tweetbot from my phone. I use Typefully to occasionally share a thought, but even that has been seldom enough to make me question if I should just ditch the entire thing. My Instagram has been in “archive mode” since it hit 500 posts.
I haven’t placed these platforms under glass because I felt I had an unhealthy relationship with them. I did it because I am peeling things away. I’m reducing inputs in order to try and allow space for mental boredom. Many of the thoughts I have that are worth writing about aren’t worth reading if I put them down when they’re still eggs. They need to be incubated. They need time to develop and hatch into something meaningful. It may not be the case for all, but for me, that process needs some empty space in my head. Most of the incremental changes I find myself making are in service of clearing the non-essential from my mind.
Again, I’m not in the business of giving advice… but if you feel any sense of “I can’t keep up” with the mental demands of life, maybe some of the above will spark thought of how running faster may not be the only solution.